Are You Happy Now?

Do you remember Michelle Branch?  She was an awesome pop superstar who sang of angsty love.  Before she turned country, I had memorized the three songs that had ever been played on the radio.  For some reason, I was down with her music.  And now here I am thinking about it again.  Am I happy now?  Michelle had asked me that very question everyday on the FM stations.  I thought I knew the answers.  And now here I am, unsure.  Everytime that I think I'm happy, I leave my comfort zone and start thinking.  We all know the dangers of overthinking, and yet I'm still stuck in its throes.  Am I happy now?  I'm not entirely sure anymore.  When I've got my happiness, everything is good.  Great even.  Or is it?  Is it a veneer?  Am I stuck?  Do I stay just because I've got nothing else?  Do I have nothing else?  I don't even know.  And then, when I don't have my happiness, when I'm bombarded by all those sour words and tough times.  I'm being called for help, and then I'm not even listened to.  I don't think I'm happy.  But I can't quit it.  I don't know how.